Here I am at daft o'clock again. I've been hitting the keys around 3am quite a few times lately in a bid to tire myself out enough to go back to sleep. I'm beginning to think it may have something to do with coming off Prozac, especially as this weekend I haven't been my usual self. I've had long lie-ins on Saturday and Sunday, unusual for me, and felt more like my old anti-social self on Saturday night. Of course, that may have just been the inevitable consequence of being the only sober one surrounded by inebriated aging rock'n'rollers! Yesterday I felt quite flat, it took some doing just to keep going. Is it a coincidence that I'm now down to one Prozac tablet every fourth day? With the recent good weather, we've been concentrating on the garden, with the result that the house is a tip but I can't seem to motivate myself to clean it up.
Going back to bed now.
LET ME
1 week ago
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Since the loss of my job over a year ago - and my subsequent retirement and the birth of my blog, I find myself up until 4AM many nights. Of course, as a forensic nurse for 21 years, I often was seeing child sexual abuse and rape cases for 18 out of 24 hours a day so this is nothing new. The difference is that i have no committments and can sleep whenever I want. Hard to do that after a life time of being an early AM riser!
It could be the prozac withdrawal. The thing about coming off anti-depressants, though, is that you're left second-guessing every low mood or bad day. I think it's best to take an "average temperature" over a period of time before deciding that you can't give up the drug. There are many causes for sleeplessness other than depression, and your weekend behaviour could be attributed simply to the poor sleep. Maybe if you can tackle that somehow, your mood will lift. I rarely have insomnia these days, but if I'm ever worried, I listen to recordings of the Radio 4 show "In Our Time" on my iPod - there's something about Melvyn Bragg's voice that works a treat (sorry Melvyn)
Oh I'd LOVE to sleep whenever I wanted RNSANE! Usually around 2 in the afternoon - especially if sitting in a meeting - its that Bragg effect Greg described! My mum used to tell me that I would give a fright when I was little by curling up to sleep on the concrete path - she thought I'd collapsed. I bet I could still do it! I was so tired at work today and to add insult to injury the arthritis in my knees and foot was really troublesome. Ah dear, getting old :-(
I've resigned myself to being on antidepressants for the foreseeable future. I've tried several times and not succeeded. I was off for a year and a half, it was the worst year ever for me. But remember, everyone is different.
I used to listen to the BBC World News when I had insomnia, with the volume low enough that what I was really hearing was the voices rather than the actual news. The droning would knock me out pretty well. Also, I find Garrison Keillor's voice very soporific; I don't dare listen to one of his stories when I'm driving & trying to stay awake!
Another trick for me: something sugary. My body responds (when I'm tired) with a crash. I also use the trick of concentrating on the air going cool into my nostrils & warm going out.
I hope you're under a doctor's supervision with the Prozac withdrawal!
I picked up again after the flat weekend, although I'm shattered now and planning an early night. A week and a half to go and I'm off Prozac for good (I hope). Thanks for all your support x x x
Hi lily! I seldom make it by and I'm sorry but you klnow I love you....
here you go...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P3HrP6P5xRg&feature=related
Now i'm off to read about how you and mum are getting on these days!
Hi lily!
love the video bulletholes - I've asked myself the same question rather a lot in the last two years!
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