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Tuesday, 19 May 2009


Difficult night at mum's. Played the sponge to her vinegar drip. Absorbed the thinly veiled accusations aimed at heartless daughter, replaced the new amplified phone I bought with her old, inefficient one (because she doesn't like change), stayed until 9.30pm until her mood had lightened enough for me to leave. I constantly find myself disabled by her misery and unreasonableness, the silent witness to her complaints. I have no cure for her loneliness and the burden of being responsible for her own home. At least, no cure that either of us could contemplate. Shattered. Going to bed now.


¸.•*´)ღ¸.•*´Chris said...

oh Lily, please don't be so hard on yourself. You are doing everything you can for your mum. When she starts up, make up an excuse and leave. Don't sit there and take it. Can you get someone else to go over there and take care of the nightly stuff for you so you can make the visits with her brief? I hate to see you put yourself through that.

Hugs to you from across the pond.

oldcrow61 said...

I have to agree with what Chris says. Don't beat yourself up about it.